Before we had sex

I saw this video on YouTube few months ago and I thought I should share.

Here is the link: https://youtu.be/ir2e29IKLYw

She said:

I thought I knew everything there was to know about having safe sex…
Always carry a condom and never ever get pregnant
But I guess what I needed more than a dental dam was a mental dam
Because
I just can’t stop thinking about you
People love to talk about how to avoid STIs of the physical kind
But no one likes to talk about the STIs that could destroy your mind
The ones that can have you tossing and turning at 3AM
Raking your brain and constantly wondering…

WAS I NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR HIM?
WAS THIS JUST SUPPOSED TO BE A ONE-TIME THING?
Or my favourite one: HOW COULD I BE SO STUPID ENOUGH TO LET HIM IN?

My sister always told me that my body was a temple, so never let a man in, that doesn’t take the proper time to worship you
Because you are a goddess that is truly worth sacrificing for
And I only wish that I had taken the time to listen to her more often
But instead…
I chose to listen to you
And that would have been okay if it weren’t for the fact that your love for me was untrue
Because you like someone else when you said that you liked me too
Then the deception turned into a matter of perception

Then everything started to feel like fifty questions
Except at the end of the day, I was still left guessing
And this asshole kept testing my patience
But my momma said, “Patience is a virtue”
And you said, “baby, I’d never wanna hurt you”
But you did.
You fucked me over
And left my brain impregnated with your bastard babies called “memories”
It was all fun and games when I let you up in me
But now you won’t even take joint custody
It took all but two texts to get you through my door
But let me text you about some child support

Just an honest WHY?
Because I would never let myself be reduced to some 2AM-whore
Creeping out of the windows and sneaking through backdoors
I will never let myself be reduced to some side chick
Just another side dish at the kitchen table
For you to pick at while you wait for your main entree
To just being your other bitch
I am a person
I have feelings and emotions that have a right to be protected
And just having a vagina and two tits,
Should not make me any less deserving of your time
Or someone to be disrespected
So…
If you’re gonna choose to be with her over me
Well…
I guess you have to do what’s best then
And I guess
I just wish we had taken the time to use both mental and physical protection
And had a conversation about what this all really meant
Before we had sex.

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