The Aftermath

Philippians 1:10 “For I want you to understand what really matters, so that you may live pure and blameless lives until the day of Christ’s return” (NLT)

So the question would be “what really matters?”

When I found out about Timileyin Ilepe’s death, I didn’t feel the need to ‘check up on anyone’ or ‘reconcile with anyone’ or stuffs like that. I quoted that because that is the first thing that comes to most people’s minds. 

After crying and writing a eulogy for him, I ate. I read a book. He wasn’t consciously on my mind but it was like everything I did kind of betrayed him. Questions like ‘do you think you deserve to live and he didn’t?’ ‘What makes it more important that you are alive and not him?’ I don’t know. They just popped up. I ignored but I was also curious. To be honest, I did not ask God. The devil still found a way to remember me of my flaws. Thank God for his unfailing love.

What really matters?

Back to what I was saying, when I found about his death, I was like, ‘wow. Am I really living the life I should be living?’ in my search for happiness, fulfillment and all those positive things, am I really doing what matters?

While we focus so much on reconciliation which is good and all that, do you sit down to ask ourselves that if we died today, can we say we lived and died for what really mattered.

I will be as transparent and real as I can right now.

What really matters?

Are we doing enough justice to ourselves? 

His death struck me differently. I don’t know if it’s because I am more matured now. But along with the question of what really matters is the need for self-discovery. 

If I died today, my loved ones will mourn of course. But they will move on, try to stay happy and live the best way they can. But with my life and death, when the lingering question of what really mattered is asked, what would my life and death say the answer is?

What do you represent?

It raises questions like ‘what do you want to be remembered for?’ ‘What brings happiness and fulfillment to you?’ ‘Whatgives you hope every morning and night?’ ‘What would you die for?’

Let us be very careful and rooted in the Word of God to know exactly what would make us live pure and blameless lives. 

We should also understand that it is different for us in as much as we belong to the same God.


  1. This is beautiful. Thanks b. I also didn’t feel like checking up – in fact, I felt the opposite. But thank God that He reminded me of the stuffs that mattered. And like you rightly said, it is definitely quite different for all of us, though the central one – God, is a given.

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  2. I think we should live everyday being real to ourselves, and real with people.
    To live each day with a purpose in mind is the only way to make a mark in this life

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